Monday, July 16, 2007

A confession

Dear Wife,

Our divorce hearing was four weeks ago which means we have another four weeks until it becomes final. I do have regrets, of course I do an you've told me you do as well. but I'm really glad we've managed to put the anger aside for the sake of our kids and I will absolutely hold up my end of the bargain with regards to support for them and you as I have been doing for the last three years since we split. I'm glad we're friends, or we seem to be friends, and you accept my help and advice that I offer.

I'm glad I wasn't there for the birth of your new baby girl. The thought of going through as your birth partner made me feel ill to be honest but I'd never have told you and if you'd called I'd have been there. I'm sorry it didn't work out with the baby's father I truly am but my new job will mean you get more support and I'm sure that'll be welcome.

As you know, I've met someone. And she's fantastic. She makes me feel like I've never felt before. Yes, even though we were together for 13 years, it's not the same. We married because we got pregnant, but with this girl, I want to marry her and be hers for the rest of my life. Whe fills me up. She's great with our kids, has no bad habits and adores our daughter, only having sons of her own. She wants me to move in with her and we've talked about marriage already. We wont have any more kids, I don't want to distract from my two with you.

I really want your blessing in this and I know I've talked to you about this girl, I've been a little dishonest about how serious I am. I wish there was a good time to talk about this. I want our kids at the wedding, if it happens, and I'd love for you to be there too. You were always my best friend.