we had S-E-X

I told you that it was only a one-time thing that didn't lead to
anything more than some wandering hands and a lengthy kiss. I said all
that because I knew that much would hurt you and i didn't want to hurt
you anymore than I already had. Also I didn't want you to leave, and I
feared that you might.

She and I fucked. Hard. Heavy fucked. Not just that time either. That
was the time we got caught. The entanglement started months before that
and went on well into the first year of our marriage before it fizzled out.
I really miss her still even though that was several years ago.

I don't regret it, but somehow I regret not regretting it if that makes
sense. I wish we hadn't been caught that day. Sometimes i wish you
knew the whole story. Most of the time though, I'm glad you don't.
Real glad.